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my time in paris simultaneously feels like it happened only yesterday & yet so long ago. i came off of the amazing high i got from being in a city that speaks to my deepest soul-place, only to be smacked in the face rather abruptly & inconsiderately by life. although i briefly spiraled, i have since more or less recovered. as long as recovery can be considered the loneliness i feel within myself shrinking from an endless abyss to a somewhat more manageable gaping chasm. hopefully, as long as i keep chasing that feeling i had in paris, the chasm will shrink to a deep wound, and then finally to a shallow scar that will forever remind me, but cease to overwhelm me.
i was in paris. it was one of the most amazing experiences of my life. now i am struggling to keep that sense of euphoria. i cannot give in to this.
it’s amazing what a little make-up & a shower can do.
when i arrived in paris on monday - fresh off a long day of traveling, with no make-up and my hair in a cap - i could have been invisible for all the attention i got. then the next day i take the time to get ready, do myself up a bit, and BAM. suddenly there are men everywhere. and i don’t say this positively, for the most part. french men are certainly brazen and do not take a hint easily. but nonetheless it was still nice to be reassured of my unparalleled beauty (note sarcasm here). and it did lead me to meeting a certain individual who has proven very much to be worth my time. la vie, tu me fais fou!
